Vulnerability and the Value of Not Knowing

This is my first post since I’ve started on site. One day exploring along the river with Karen Wood so far and lots of conversations via WhatsApp and Instagram. Countless thoughts and feelings, ideas and wonderings.

And one of the wonderings is what the hell I’m doing.

It’s not really a problem, I always come to this stage, I just don’t always admit it. On a residency people usually need me to seem confident, in control, and clear about where I’m heading. This time I’m giving myself permission to be more honest.

Being openly yourself in a place you don’t know, with people you don’t know, as part of a collaboration that has no set way of working or fixed outcome, is an incredibly vulnerable position to be in.

Not knowing is a rich place where all the sensations of place, body and emotion can mix and swirl and flow. And after a while they will cluster and tell me what I need to do next. That’s how my process works. But again I don’t always say that out loud.

Multiple Exposure Image – Collaboration with Susan Merrick, Maija Liepins and Karen Wood

When I work in education we talk about the value of not knowing, and the importance of being open to being taken in new directions. We also talk about how that can feel uncomfortable, and that structure and mutual support is necessary, alongside documentation of the process, so you can look back, reflect on what you have said/made/seen and so realise that you do ‘know’ what you are doing. But that feeling your way forward, followed by a retrospective piecing together, is a different kind of knowing to what is often valued, or which can be easily articulated.

Playing in the river with a doll body and a tape drawing. Photo by Karen Wood

“The creation of something new is not accomplished by the intellect but by the play instinct.” – Carl Jung

I guess what I have been doing so far is playing. Play is so often misunderstood. It is seen as something that children do, and children in turn are seen as less than adults.

I can’t say what is going in the exhibition in the Winchester Gallery yet. I can’t say what I will have learnt at the end of this process yet, I can’t say what I will take on from this to seed new projects and beginnings. But I know l that I will make what I need to, I will learn what is needed (within the context of the place and people that I am sharing the experience with) and that my practice will be all the richer for it.

This isn’t the post that I was going to write – it was going to be all about what I’ve done and why, with neatly made links and well chosen images. But I’m trying to keep open a space to play so that I don’t close things down too soon.

Karen Wood drawing in response to our explorations of the River Itchen

For now I have some loose clusters of ideas, some images of playful moments spent on-site, and a question that I am asking myself and the rest of the LOD2 team.

The key areas I’ve been exploring are:

  1. Water inside and outside the body. Rivers of blood and water (including medical processes and sampling)
  2. Play and its links with no. 1 (boats, dolls, toys, paddling, laughter and fun)
  3. Flooding and burning as a result of climate breakdown (in connection with Andy Jones)
  4. Seeing/being beyond boundaries (and its link with the damage done through our inability to perceive ourselves as continuous with the ‘More than Human World’ – see no. 2)
  5. Linking with all of the above – embodied and artful ways of knowing and their place in preparing for an uncertain future

And the key question that’s occupying me at the moment:

Q. Is Dissent a privilege of the Insider? (having the freedom to choose to step outside rather than living there)

An Urban Rural Exchange

Artists Karen Wood and James Aldridge will present how different viewpoints, practices and working environments can support a developing awareness of what exists ‘beyond the binary’. 

Between November 2018 and November 2019 artists James Aldridge (Wiltshire) and Karen Wood (London) have collaborated as Urban Rural Exchange.

Meeting for bi-monthly walks in Wiltshire and London, and maintaining a dialogue online via instagram, James and Karen have documented their experiences of where they live and work, through collections, bundles, tape drawings and photographs. 

‘For me our collaboration is about taking these identities, that we, our work, and our home environments have been given, and exploring them. Blurring the boundaries between them and by doing so deconstructing the labels.’

James Aldridge

On November 2nd Karen and James will talk about how place-based arts practices can support a developing awareness of what exists ‘beyond the binary’. Their short talk will take place at our Inside / Outside Symposium at Winchester School of Art.

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Intro: Unplanned Response

Participating Artists:

Karen Wood
Tina Sanchez
James Aldridge

We will focus on relationships with space and place, on encounters with each other and anyone else we meet. Where our on-site explorations and conversations inform events/work offsite, we will weave those in too.

What Will We Do?

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We will be drawing on the following values/ideas:

  • Opening up the focus on dissent, to explore creative dialogue as a way of sharing and representing multiple viewpoints across perceptual divides (e.g. inside/outside)
  • Space as potential
  • Infectiousness. The excitement that stems from experimentation and openness within the group radiating out to people we encounter.
  • Embodied ways of knowing
  • Sensory awareness vs disturbance/disruption

You can follow us on instagram at @UnplannedResponse

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www.tinasanchezartist.com
www.jamesaldridge-artist.co.uk